Let's flash forward to present-day. I've lost a total, so far, of 63 pounds. Yes, it definitely happened gradually, but this last round of fat-blasting really pushed my body into a new, unfamiliar physical territory. I can shop in the "regular" sections of stores. I can wear skinny jeans. I can wear form-fitting tops and dresses, etc. That's all good and well. I worked hard to be able to do those things and I am proud of myself. However, I have found that lately I am much more concerned with my outer appearance than I have been in the past. I definitely ask my husband "how does this look?" more often. I get irritated if he doesn't notice a new outfit. I get a secret, internal high when my co-workers complement what I'm wearing or how I look. It's strange. I typically really like attention. But this is different. It's almost like I get super-embarassed and can only feel good about getting completed on the inside or when I'm by myself. It's very strange.
What do you think about this? Do you think it's normal/typical? I'm not sure. I mean, it makes sense when I think about it...I look better, so I feel better, so I want to make sure everyone else thinks I look better. I guess that's how it goes. I feel like I'm constantly brushing my hair, looking in the mirror, adjusting my clothes, etc. The thing is, I do NOT judge the way anyone else looks for their weight, clothing, etc...unless it's just out of control like this:
So, I want your feedback. It wasn't easy for me to say that I think I've become a little vain. I want your opinions/thoughts on this matter.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!
I don't think it's about being vain, but more about taking pride in your appearance and not feeling the need to "hide" or blend in. You've worked hard- show it off!
ReplyDeleteAnd that kid's hair is Kick-A@$! LOL
I agree with "building a baseball team" your not vain now you just want everyone else to see how you finally feel:) I am the same way I dress better than I have in my whole life (not always) but I can only imagine how much worse it will get once I get to my goal!
ReplyDeleteI am not sure if it is vanity or perhaps confirmation that what you are/have been doing is the in the right direction. You are obviously doing it for yourself, but you want others to notice too. KWIM?
ReplyDeleteYES. I just got my haircut shorter than I ever have (above the shoulders, gasp!). For the first time I am not hiding behind long locks--I am actually doing my hair, make-up, wearing cuter clothes and getting rid of stuff I know looks sloppy. Last year I wore this black columbia half-zip that is at least ten years old about once per week. I haven't even pulled it out of the closet this school year. A little vanity / caring for yourself is a good thing girl!
ReplyDeleteNot vain one bit, Sarah! You should be proud of yourself! I know I am. You've come a long way - show off what you got :)
ReplyDeleteGirl, you have earned every bit of pride that you feel about your body!!
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